Hokayy..sakit bersalin dh abis ditempoh..yg tinggal sakit lepas kenak operate...with the cathether (beg aek kemeh) still bergantong tepi katil n the drip yg masih on sebelah kerek...pergerakan aku terbatas...cuma yg best ...stoking TED yg dipasang kt kaki tk..those yg beranak thru czer mesti tauk stokin TED tk,...compression socks utk elak darah beku mun xsilap aku...
stoking TED ku yg best!
so..anak ku berumo satu hari on the 15th..welcome to the world my boy...niat aku utk fully bf masih gk kuat wpun dlm kesakitan n penat..siyesly penat...mun ekot hati..aku rs nk tdo....tdo....n tdo....n bia anak kt nursery n fed with FM....but, niat yg bait wajib diteruskan...dlm kepalak aku asyik pkir.."ssh kinek tk..tp klak2 snang.."
Pg2 aku dh mtk hasben ambk anak dr nursery n tried to nurse my boy...as expected..no milk was leaking from the boobs (that is normal ok)...so i juz kept encouraging my boy to latch and try to suck the breast...palingggg penting...position utk feed baby for czer mother...ada mcm2 position yg recommended cthnya football carry...tp..aku still selesa dgn cradle hold...(position yg plg biasa org pakei ya bah..)..yg penting ibu n baby selesa..
Then..the paed dtg and inform my boy got jaundice and its quite high n quite worrying..sbb normally jaundice akan muncol 3-4 hari lps branak but for my baby tek...umo sehari dh dpt bacaan jaundice =8!..so the doc advice utk truskn bf which mmg niat aku utk truskn bf wpun anak aku kept sleeping n need to be woke up every 2hrs...(jaundice baby mmg kuat tdo)...
the sleepy baby
During night time aku tabahkn hati dan gigihkan diri utk bangunkn baby every 2hrs with a little help from my husband..(ya pn aku tpaksa balingnya pakei bantal utk bgnknnya sbb en.hasben nmpk mcm sdap glerrrr tdo..huhh)..sedangkan aku berdebar2 nk tggu keesokan hari sbb nk plh bilirubin test agik...Mlm terasa sgt pjg sbb aku xtentu tdo..takut baby xmenyusu...very the tired ooo mummy...
Hari pn siang..lab tech dtg utk ambk drh baby...then i wait....wait....n wait for the paed....hoping jaundice trn..
Tapi...bkn rezki mek org...jaundice anakku makin nait!! which is =9.8 sumting...huaaaaaaaaaa...aku rs sungguh sedih...sebagai ibu biasa..of course akan sedih..setelah ko bersengkang mata nyusu anak tp jaundice makin naitla pulak....anakku pn kurg poo2 n kemeh...makinlaaa susah hati....smpe doc pesan..mun aek kemeh tuka kaler mcm merah..inform cepat2..cuak sa atikuuu...tp aku still kuatkn ati nk bf kn anak bujangku...sehari2 ku cuba gk...anakku masih gk xmk latching glk bcoz he is all the time sleepy...i'm tired..and i cant move much...dets when i decided utk kuarkn my unimom manual pump (aku mmg mbak siap2 ke hospital in case of emergency)...so,kes aku tk..aku sdirik declare emergency sbb..mun anakku xmk latch..my milk supply will not rise up incoming days..so,hari2 awal tk mmg penting ok ibu2...no matter kepak ne pn tak org...mun dh decide nk bf...jgn gv up...be smart..be creative....
So aku pn mula mengepam..wpun awal2 ya mmg ngepam angin..but i just pump..pump and pump...and i manage to get 0.5oz milk....alhamdulillah...oklah ya..sbb mmg byk ya jk pn sepatutnya...ingat ya ibu2...perut anak kita hanyalah sebesar kacang jk ms bok lahir...nya xplu minum 2oz utk skali feeding...
hasil pam hari ke-2
With that little precious milk...aku spoon fed my boy with my breast milk (mmg aku siap bekal sudu ok...sbb puting palsu boleh menyebabkan nipple konpius utk baby)..once tak org feed baby awal ari dgn botol...then nk ajar blt menyusu direct..akan timbol masalah lain......
So..cmyalh usaha aku demi nk menyusukan anak...aku selang seli try utk direct feeding to breast n spoon feeding....wpun anakku berak pn masih gk sgt2 sedikit n pampers pn very2 dry...aku still yakin dgn susu ibu...menunggu hari seterusnya utk cek bilirubin....
Hari pn siang skali gk....lab tech dtg ambk drh baby (cm deja vu jk).....then paed pn dtg gk...aku ng hrp2 ada berita gembira......then the doc said.......
"The jaundice increase again mummy..tidak cukup susu utk baby berak and kencing..."
My hope like..ohhh...crushed and smack down ( T T )....tp still aku inform the doc..."the baby kept sleeping n it is hard for me to feed him"....
So the paed advice to try to wake up the baby selalu (which is what i did for the past 2 days)...aku pn masih meneruskan usaha spt semalam...until...time nk maghrib.....when i check the pampers..there was like a red spot..kdak darah ada juak..ohhh..ku teringat pesan doktor...so i called the nurse....n the nurse called the paed...
The nurse return to the ward and inform me the suggestion frm the doc...which really shakes my belief....doc sajes soh top up dgn FORMULA MILK utk mlm yaa jk...supaya bladder anakku xstress...sbb since nya dh kemeh kaler merah ya..maksudnya bladder baby sgt2 dry n stress...ohhh...aku dlm dilema.......hasben xda time ya....aku bna2 dlm dilema...samada aku nk mempertahankan penyusuan ibu..atau aku give in dgn idea doc ya...so i called my hasben n inform him of my concern....
Walaupun aku dh tauk jwpn hasben aku (mmg nya akan give in bila melibatkn kesihatan anak)...tp aku still mk assurance of the decision....ibu2 di lua...aku hanyalah wanita biasa dan ibu biasa yang baruk melahirkan anak dan berasa sgt penat dan kesakitan.....jadi...aku pn brik green light dgn nurse utk brik FORMULA MILK................................................................until i ask the nurse a question..
"Bp byk susu ktk akan brik?"
ya nurse ya jwb: "Sebanyak anak ktk dpt minumlah"....
Terus ku rs ditampar boyak! and tersedar dr kekhilafan aku.....and aku request nk kaka ngn doc...wat i told him is quite surprising..aku pn xtauk cne ku ada keberanian utk berhujah ngn doc ya....ku mdh ngn doc..
"I don't see how giving formula milk will solve the problem..because right now..theres no problem with my milk..the problem is my baby refused to milk since he is consistently sleepy..Even if i give him FM...he will still sleeping and refuse to drink the milk..so i'm gonna try again tonite to wake him up n feed him with my milk"...
Pasya...aku pn makin nekad utk bgnkn anakku menyusu di samping letak anakku bwh lampu fototerapi ya....bjaga almost the whole night..and came out with a target...mun esok kuning masih xtrn...o still nait..aku akan mtk discaj juak...takut klak doc pujok soh brik fm..
tabahlah hati...
Hari pn siang skali gk...lab tech pn ambk darah gk.....and the paed pn dtg gk.....aku pn bdebar2.....kali tk....kuning anakku masih sama mcm marek....sik nait..sik trn...statik....
Doc tyk ngn aku..apa ku nk plh...ku mdh ku nk discaj and folo up kt KKIA jk...so..we were discharged...huhuhu....blt rmh..aku teruskan penyusuan sekerap yg aku blh...kali tk..susu dh makin bertambah..2oz skali pam...ditambah dgn direct feeding.....aku hrp bna2 kuning anakku akan trn....
Then folo up kt KKIA.....the result= 9.2...ada penurunan..lega2...then next folo up dgn doc..jaundice pn trus trn..and trn.....ALHAMDULILLAH.....aku bna2 lega....najis anakku pn dh bertuka dr meconium yg kaler hitam ya kepada kaler kuning mustard....which is good....
and masa umo anakku 6 hari...tali pusatnya tanggal.....and masa umonya 7 hari...doc declare dh xplu cek kunin gk.......and i'm still a proud FULL BREASTFEEDING MUMMY!!!...
So,,ibu2...penyusuan ibu memang banyak cabarannya....tetapi..kekuatan dan keyakinan mesti bermula daripada diri kita sendirik....bkn org lain....sb mental..fizikal...kita yg akan guna...bak kata pepatah...berat mata memandang...bahu kita memikul..agiklaa berat....
Bertabahlah ibu2 di luar ya yg nk nyusu anak.....gambate!
ok...ya jk cita ku...for now.........
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